Today is my last final and my last day as a freshman in college. Looking back a year ago to the same day today, things were so different. The people around me are different, my experiences and how I view life are different. I’m different. The drastic change was terrifying but exhilarating at the same time. It’s sort of hard to explain. A year ago, if you were to tell me that I’m going to be like this and would experience all of that a year from now, I would not believe you. One hundred percent. I had a whole different view of life then and some of the things I never thought I would do, I’ve done or would not mind doing. I’m more open-minded and I guess you could say experience-hungry. There’s nothing wrong with that. There really isn’t. It’s just that sometimes I get scared because there were points in time in the past when I would wake up and realize that I don’t even know myself. The past couple of months, I let everything that happened to me take control of my life. I let everything get through me.
Recently though, I’ve been feeling a little more grounded and self-controlled, which is good. I want to say that I could feel that better days are coming but I’m afraid that I’ll jinx it, so here’s to hoping for the best. Things could only get better from here, and if they don’t, I know that I could get through it with my friends beside me.